Who Am I?

Who am I?? Well isn’t this just the biggest and most common question of sentient beings since, I guess since time and sentience.. Seriously though my name is Hilery (HIls) Kundinger, some of the aspects of my being and the story of how I came to be here anchoring the Blue Flame Apothecary are as such.

To begin, I came into this world a very, very sensitive little being who often felt quite unsure of time and place. Namely what and why is this linear time thing and where is this place I now find myself, wow its loud! I began to acclimate as I got older, shutting down, to some degree anyways, my sensitive nature. I was, of course, never really able to close the valve of information coming in. So instead of going away I had just managed to create quite a nasty kink in the hose, so to speak.

Well as you can imagine over the years this pressure began to build and build until finally the hose burst, it wasn’t pretty. I tried to ignore how badly I felt over a couple of years, masking the pain and dis-comfort, the dis-ease in my being with alcohol and other substances. This would work here and there but over time the fallout, hang-over, from this method of coping just made matters worse. Until it hit a crescendo, I was no longer able to move - quite literally I was using a cane and mobility scooter during those times when I wasn’t trapped in bed. I had created such an imbalance in my system that I found myself battling numerous auto-immune conditions and a very severe case of endometriosis, with ovarian cysts, adenomyosis and a whole mess of fibroids and adhesions too boot.. Without going to far into the weeds with all this, I will say I spent the years from 2013 - 2019 engaging in a futile attempt to remedy all this dis-ease in my body and being using oh so many surgeries and medications in what now feels like one long never ending dr./ hospital visit.

It was, I believe some point in early-mid 2018 (there’s that pesky time thing again) that I had an “epiphany” of sorts.. It came in, and I allowed myself to receive, that what I was doing simply was not working. That what I really needed was find a way to re-wire my entire central nervous system. With this knowing, gnosis, I began the process of completely changing the way I viewed not only my symptoms but the way I spoke to myself about these various dis-eases. I had spent so many years and so much money, trying to name everything that was “wrong” with me now I was being called to in some ways forget all these names

It feels important to point out here that for me and the state my being had gotten to, the surgeries for the endo etc., had indeed become necessary. Sometimes the body needs this type of intervention. That may not always be the case but it was for me at that point…

So begins the process of rediscovery, of finding my way back to health. How did I do it? Well there’s a lot of different tools I used and will share with you through this portal, but my short answer, Spiritual Alchemy.

Spiritual Alchemy?

Yup, Spiritual Alchemy. What the, is Spiritual Alchemy you ask? Let’s first look at the most common idea of alchemy. That being the transmutation of a base metal, such as lead, into a “higher” substance such as gold. Now, if we apply this to the human being, the soul we could say that spiritual alchemy is the transmutation of dis-ease (imbalance), by distilling, re-leasing, re-balancing, and enLightening (bringing light into) the four planes of your being. Its all very simple and yet can be quite difficult to comprehend using the prevailing knowledge of our collective time.

So in comes the Blue Flame Apothecary…

What Is This Apothecary?

When I feel into this question what always comes in is, that this apothecary has been created to provide Medicine for a Loud World… This is done using various tools.. So if Spiritual Alchemy is the tool box, or medicine cabinet, then the channeled frequency meditations, programs and products are the tools.. The most important piece of this whole process though is the re-membering. Re-membering that all the medicine you will ever need already exists within you.

Here at the Blue Flame Apothecary my job is to act as a catalyst and guide to help you re-member. To create and hold a space where you can begin to reveal to your-self who you really are. To re-member your-Self and the unique medicine you hold once again.

In order to do this I will use various tools, which as an Oracle (a builder of bridges), crystal healer and channel are currently available to me.. At the time of this writing this includes sharing Guided Journey’s through the Akashic Records and Unique Birth Map (Natal Chart), Galactic-Cosmic Astrology (Cosmic Light Drops newsletter) as well as Energy Updates on YouTube, along with a variety of different light-encoded, crystal activated frequency meditations, programs and products. As this is all guided by Divine Will, my Higher Self, my Soul Group, my Guides and The Oneness/ Source/ The Divine - the energy that is the beginning, the end - beyond time and all time… How and what is shared will change. As of this writing the It is through offering One on One Guided Soul Path Journey’s and the held container of the Membership Portal where most of my unique medicine (these tools) will be shared. There are also stand-alone programs and the various “traditional” apothecary offerings, in The Shop.

However you feel called to journey whether with me and the various offerings here at the Blue Flame Apothecary, with another facilitator/ guide or some other way. I send you so many blessings and wish you a fulfilling exploration of all this world, this a-live-ness has to offer.